Actually, i want to post something more fangirlish-bold, italic, underline that...Also don't forget to emphasize it by its size-. But since i haven't prepared the material yet*yeah, like screencaps*, so i shall postpone myself D,:

For the substitute, i shall write film review instead. I mean MY film review, so this is subjective, hoho.

( apakah pernah ada cara untuk membalasnya? )

O iy, and this is birthday fic for Cloud. Happy belated b'day, Cloudie! Biarpun telat sangat publishnya, yang penting saya start bikin fic ini di bulan ulang taunmu*alesan kampring dan tak termaafkan*

Seperti rantingan saya beberapa waktu lalu, setelah mengedit2*yang akhirnya mengubah BANYAK*, dan karena FFN ga mau kebuka2, maka proudly present my first fanfic to be publish here, right on LJ*tebar confetti*

Fandom: Final Fantasy VII (compilation)
Disclaimer: Square-Enix.  (too bad its not mine ),:)
Rating: +17 for a depth of thoughts.

POV : Cloud centric…I know. He’s so damn fool and worn out by his own delusion. But he’s lovely by his own way. And a bit Tifa’s. (Ugh, okay, I have to warn you too, this is so much my interpretation so that you have to excuse my subjectivity).

Timeline : FF AC/C to Reminiscence.

Author’s note : Fanfic ini dibuat setelah melakukan riset (yang termasuk di dalamnya: membaca berbagai sumber artikel otentik, kompilasi FF VII selengkap yang bisa didapat, stalking forum-forum terkemuka yang bersedia menyediakan asupan paling masuk akal bagi rabid fangirl ini, dan masih belum mengucapkan terima kasih untuk komentar, pendapat dan perdebatan panas penuh intrik di antara mereka) dan penerawangan (yang termasuk di dalamnya: kejang otak non-permanen dalam proses tugas dan mimpi siang bolong di masa libur Lebaran). Sappy? Fluffy? Angsty?Flat? Semua komentar ditunggu dengan kerendahan hati. Bon appetite!

( Dapatkah manusia melarikan diri dari bayangannya? )

Kenapa dunia ini mendadak berasa tambah edan?

Baru beberapa lama ditinggal-jelas bukan ditinggal mati-udah muncul fenomena-fenomena baru.

Seakan belum cukup fenomena yang terjadi di masyarakat, bahkan di dunia maya pun turbulensi pergolakan fenomena tidak bisa dieelakan.

( Sebagai catatan: dunia maya yang sifatnya hiburan. )

Like i'm not busy enough, now i legally being a treasurer or chamberlain or anything you want to call it in SAA committee.

SAA is big subject in architecture, it shows some of the greatest work by some students, judges by some prestigious architects, and then awarding the best of the bunches.

Not that i'm burden by being a committee, since i was the one who applied to be one. But the problem is being a TREASURER itself.

In apply paper, i clearly wrote that my interest is definitely in other division, istead of treasurer. But then when i came to the first meeting, i was shocked by the announcement. Here was an announcement (with my sarcastic respond):

My chief that in future would called as MC: "So, i will pronounce the formation for this comittee. Me as a chairman...Bla, bla, bla...."
Me in the future would called as victim or VC: (still 'wo-hoo', 'wo-hooo' others till...)
MC: "For the first treasurer, Monica, second treasurer..."
VC: :ZOMG! "Yu, Mari~!" -->(it seems there's no precise translation or even close for this respond, so i wrote it genuinely. But litteraly it means: HELL NO!)
...
...
...
MC: "Is there anyone want to protest?"
VC:(raise my hand several time, but my MC is to smart to heed me)"Okay, so its fixed."

Haven't satisfied, i was protesting to the vice chief

VC: "I don't think i want to be treasurer."
Vice Chief: "But its because you wrote on apply paper that you've been a treasurer before."
VC:"But only once." *for dear reader: the fact is, i already felt to the satanic circle of treasurer. I have been a treasurer many times before and i'm sick of it!*
Vice chief: "Yes. Because none other have that experience. And the second treasurer was offering herself."
VC: "Eh...Just because that one experience and none other had?"
Vice Chief: *nodded*
VC: (speechless)

Here, once again, i felt to the satanic circle of treasurer...Man...

Mada mada dane

Oh! And i want to personally, officially apologize to Isumi-idle and Aiy-puff. Please have a confident on me that i won't depressed you with non-happy-end TeFu fic. I won't take a risk being hated by you, Guys *or killed by other TeFu fangirl*. So keep your knife and other sharp things that could possible killing yourself (or me) out of your range while reading my POT fiction.

Sorry for Aiy-san, i would follow your prompt as much as i can, since i made it especially for you, though. Sorry for made you almost divorced with Vierblith-san.

Sorry for Isu cause i was glooming your day. Next time read it when you already relaxing yourself and not busy with exam and tasks.^^'

And i apologize as many as people want to protest bout that fic.

Hahaha, this post is long enough...time to get back to my hell task.

Its been a very long time. I haven't been productive. I knew its caused by tasks from school. Its like tasks made me a slave of them. Sometimes i become stressful, and to run from it i watched some drama. More or less, which it could be predict, i'm carried away.

This idea already haunted my mind for a moment, long enough. But i haven't got any chance to make realization. But now, even without careful planing, i've already post it to FFN^^.

So people, please check it out.

Fandom: Tenipuri
Rating: T
Genre: Drama (and i mean it! please tell me if its too sappy)
Pairing: Nah! Don't judge now! It still can developing wildly^^. Just please don't kill me so quick so i can make an explanation.
Language: Indonesian...Yes, sadly it is.
Type: Multichapter, so far, still prologue *hiding*

Alert: AU and cross-gender and of course dramanizing..TT.TT.

www.fanfiction.net/s/4645016/1/To_Meet_Once_Again

And this is dedicated to Aiy-san for her challenge One More Time, One More Chance, i don't very sure it will satisfied you, also it still prologue. I hope i can make it better in every progress. Hope you can enjoy it, okay, Dear?

Edited: Thanx for Aiy-san to remind me 'Cross gender' not 'Cross dressing'. I think i bumped my head while i was sleeping...TeHe...

hIyyyyYyyyAAAAAAAhhhh!!!

Its been a long time i haven't writing something here (except ghosting another's journal)...Okay, big lie. Yesterday afternoon, i tried to write something and input a color quiz. But, i felt sorry for myself, am i to stupid or what but the HTML for the result didn't work when i pasted it here. So i got pissed off and left after delete it.TT.TT (my...my...).

But i come back again, here, at dusk, to be precise at 5 A.M, still doing my task.

If i remember correctly, which couldn't be wrong since its a memory from two days ago, i slept at 5.30 A.M. So i slept at 5 A.M two times in a row...

And i have a class at 7 A.M 'till 3 P.M, non-stop! Bloody hell

I think i will be crazy soon.

Or die.

And the reason would be not-enough-sleep

Okay, turn myself to more brighter mood.
NOW I'M IN NEED OF LEPTOP!!!!!!!!!

Eh, uh...Not that. turn on another switch...
I WANT TO KEEP A PUPPY OR CAT IN MY DOME

Only random taught after seeing many of my friends keeping animal in their room, mostly fishes...But i don't want fishes! *i could eat them as supper*TT.TT

This become odd...Try another....
HEDONISM LIFE!

---skip---skip---

I guess i need some sleep. Thank you for your attention and fool you for read all this junk...HYA~
*Runaway from mass-anger*

Okay, i'll try to work on meme^^. just 1-16, coz i can't do the rest...Hyaaaa...Sorry, Aiy-san!

01. The person who tagged you was?
</a></b></a>aiy_puff., really miss u, girl!!!

02. You relationship with him/her is?
gossiping friend XD, Tenipuri fangirl-i'm her subordinate in TeFu's fangirl, infan member.

03. Your first impression of him/her is?
Calm...Now...But i know ITS definitely not...Teehee...

04. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you is?
Her offering to beta-ing my fic and coloring my doujin...DATS CO CWIT*huggie Aiy-san*

I remember something that happened to me this week, in Wednesday for precise at about seven past half in the morning.

Location: campus, third story.
Do : in my way to audiovisual room at basement level to attend class

Yeah, in my very first step, going down about the fourth of fifth ladder step, i fell-almost-roll to the bordes. ( an extend step for resting on stair ). Luckily, i caught the handrail before i roll. If not, i would end wounded hard*giddy*.

Even so, i still wounded myself. Blood was running from my feet, inside the thumb's nail on right foot and bruise on my left knee. I found scratch on my left arm and bruise too on my shoulder-still the same arm...Dammit....T.T'

The day after, all of my body in pain like every joint would getting loose. I had a hard time to come to my classes that located in second or third story. Ascend or descend, both like hellTT.TT.

While still in trauma, my friend joked with me. She put her foot on my rush way back to class that should i attended five minutes before. I almost fell over again! GAH!

At least, God still loved me, so i managed to keep my balance. I was a little bit mad at her and yelled, "Okay, you don't know i fell from stairs yesterday. Don't do prank like this."

She shocked and apologized. I sighed, saying, "Its okay." and back to my class.

Wounds on feet almost healed, but the bruise on my knee still had a promising color that it wouldn't get better soon, purple with black shade.

Sigh...
Note for everyone : Be careful when you walk.

Tried my best in this last two days, read 300 pages literature, plus making conclusion from that and from some other handbook just to be crashed once again.

In the literature, there`s so many rooms i must provide for auditorium that being my project for this semester. And next thing i knew, my new count was exploding! MUCH bigger than it should.

No need my instructor to tell me wrong! I've already felt that!>,<'

For a night, i was trying to fix it, but i was under medicine's influence. I was felt down at twelve past half. Woke up at four to make block plan. ( whoever don`t understand about architecture, Block plan is how we putting down and arranging block or blocks of building in the site. Circulation -like turn over here, ramp there, street which connect places- and access -in / exit- program are included when designing block plan )

Nevertheless, i haven't decide any theme for my design so my arrangement become blurry that i, myself, could not understand what have i done.

I wasn`t talk to my instructor this morning, coz i didn't have any material to show and discuss with him.

At ten, he's left. Uh, okay.

After had lunch, i came back to my class, inspite of hanging around with my friends.  I thought i must catch a theme first.

And don't ever underestimate finding theme, NEVER
It harder than imagine thing that can`t be true, coz it must be relevant to implement it in the design so the design, one day, can be build. And a theme is like a life to the design, as a designer or creator, i feel like i give breath of life so that i connected deeply with my design. -melancholy, isn`t it? But a good architect must love his / her design-

After have been struggling in mind from noon 'till evening, i've already trie so many themes -ex. boat reffered to Tangkuban Perahu, angklung as West Java culture-, trying to be a little bit creative, i found an idea that seems fit to my project.

Facial

Auditorium =  orchestra / theater  = expression = facial

Still to absurb?
Yeah...
But i think it would work...
And i hope so.

Amin.

Tonight i will try to implement that theme to my design and fixing my damn mess count.
Pliz pray for me, friends^^

Hmmm, aiy-san, I've already put it in Savefile, but i still confuse using link program. the link always not work. Some advice, please?:D

And i've already commenting your new fic^^. Not so long rambling, but it means good...*smashed by a chair*

In several days, almost a week, i've got sick, as the weather hasn't so nice recently. And my sounds start changing, become lower than usual *which already low*.

Many of my friends asked me, "Are you sick?"

Which is the answer they should known already, so i think a more interesting answer, "No. I'm changing voice, like every boy does."

...

I know its very absurb, at least they laughed when i said that. Because i'm so boring being sick and lack of stamina, so i made fun of it. It really works to make me cheerful and not taking my sickness too hard.

And not just me who make fun of my sickness, last night, my friends asked me to sing Dewi Persik's song.

"Stop! Kau mencuri hatiku~."

As you can imagine, my voice hasn't normal yet. When i tried to sing it, my voice was always lost at some high pitch. The laugh was booming inside a car. They kept asking me to do it again after that, but enough making fun of me, palz!

I drank about three pills and liquid madicine. And i sick of it!

I WANT TO GET BETTER SOON!*shout hysterically*

Does anyone knows song titled Kage sung by Shibasaki Kou?

I knew this song when i was watching dorama called Byakuyakou. The story is very interesting and have a very deep intricacy that would drown a watcher like me to the deepest angst emotion.

A story telled about a boy and a girl who try to hide thier darkest secret, killing their own parent. If you watch the film, it would tell you the reason behind their action, but i will never giving you spoiler^^. So the story goes, they're growing, keep silence about their past, living a normal live like anyone do. When the secret, they wary hide, about to reveal, they must do something to keep their achievement in balancing their darkest past and falsehood present, being a murder once again.

The background of the story realy gloomy, dark, thrill, buat also sad. They could not achieve genuine happy live because a secret they've been kept for a rest of their live. And to keep that secret, they adding more and more sin, spilling blood from their own bare hands. As an implication, they feel jealousy when someone around them feel glad. And they always in  need to shatter everyone' hapiness because they cannot feel so.

Really a touching story from the very first till the end.

As a rememberance and proove of admiring of this dorama, I've searching for the soundtrack for a longggggggggggggggggg time. Almost a year, but definitely, i'm fool. Because i can download it easily in Mega Upload.

Here's the translation:

I wonder where I am now?

In that place where I stand,
I don’t really have many interests.
But when we are together, we stand out.

From the beginning
We never had anything to rely on.
But I’m sure there’s no need
To savour the gentleness…

Aaa but then, even if this weight disappears,
We can be together,
Sinners who should love.

This morning that holds such sorrow,
Is my last little thing bit of strength I have left.
I will see a vision of you.
And I won’t be afraid alone…
Is what I quietly whispered to myself.

My mother used to say
"There is nothing here
We don't have anything...
To look for"

In order to not sink to the bottom
Your figure from behind
Shows an unknown potential
Piecing nearly broken dream
Lets end the day piecefully

Surrounding you and making you...
One of a kind nourishment
I mutterred quietly

Tell me what do you think?

I used this song for my fic titled 'Hatimu Berkata Demikian' or 'Your Heart Said So'. Fandom Death Note. But cause of my inability, i apologize to whoever has interest to read that fic, have to mastered Indonesian language^^. I'm not so sure with my ability in English.

And here's the link to download the song:
4megaupload.com/index.php